A coward's way

My daily routine:
Sleep
Work
Lunch
Sleep
Supper
Sleep

Why so much sleeping you might ask. Is it because my job is so exhausting? No it isn't.
The only time I don't feel any pain right now is while working or sleeping. And I chose the cowards way, instead of facing my problems I run from them. When I sleep I don't feel the pain that is destroying me, so I sleep. Simple, easy and gutless.

Which one is worse?
Losing your strength or finding out you didn't really had strength in the first place?



Well writing here could be the first step out of this vicious circle, so I keep you posted. But for now it is time for bed.